ok, i said i was going to find peace in my decision....
finding peace to me, reverts back to analyzing me.... and the why's.
I'm always looking for reason... whether it's why I was meant to meet someone...to why I do what I do.....
Ok...and of course I don't analyze everything...but bigger things I do... And bigger... means my perception of whatever is going on.
I tell my son... i think i have a "natural stoner brain" only because I remember wayyyy back in the day, how I was affected by smoking pot. I over analyzed everything, everyone, if I said this, i wondered why, and took it apart...if someone said something, i wondered why and analyzed why why why.... It's funny, but every time I got high with someone i liked, I usually stopped dating them after the high. Now you know why i won't touch the stuff.
What this whole incidence takes me back to....is the thing I believe and know with all my heart....
OUR THOUGHTS ARE WHAT MAKE US....
and yes... our thoughts are what also limit us.
That's the only thing we are in control of....everything else... happens the way it's supposed to happen.
But... if I didn't "think" or "perceive" my current reality as negative...then everything would be ok....
and if I keep "thinking" or "perceiving" my current reality as wonderful....then it'll always be wonderful.
Wow...sounds so simple huh. Thing is....it is!
We are free...
free to choose..... are we going to be happy.... are we going to be sad.
Are we going to find happiness in today in our current reality...or wait to find happiness when we "think" that happiness will be based on an event or occurrence...
Our minds never stop...heck i know mine doesn't. sometimes i think i have 3 minds going on at once... the creative one...the realistic one... the positive...and the negative....ohhhh that's 4 minds...ufff! Oh well i like that number... for me it's positive... so i'll fly with it.
There i go..... analyzing...creating a positive point. I could have said...oh shit, 4 levels, i think i'm going crazy...i must be schizophrenic because all those voices are just different levels of me that i can't shut up
In the end..... it's how we think today..... will bring results tomorrow. Whether positive or negative... our tomorrows will be based on our thoughts of today.
Some people may not believe it... but proof is what provided belief for me. Maybe because I can analyze myself without blinders...may be because i can admit to my failures and accomplishments... and take credit for what i did or didn't do. I think that's the first step.
hmmm....so how do i end this.
I'll end this by saying.... and knowing that my thoughts of who I am...what I can be.... are what push me and what freeze me. And the only way to expand our thoughts, is working, one day at a time...heck one minute at a time...one thought at a time.... to being our best. I truly truly truly believe.......that my thoughts are what make me.....what have made me who I am today.
And that goes for the negative, as well as the positive thoughts.
Ok..... on to reading and listening to something to expand my mind in a positive way!!!! What are you doing today?
Hey...if I want to be free...it's up to me.
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