Over the last few years, I hardened. I've opened my eyes to truths. Many things I knew before, but they just keep reaffirming what I believed them to be.
I remember when I truly wore rose colored glasses, everything was beautiful. All my beliefs were held firm, because I knew in the depths of my heart, the things I loved were what I truly believed them to be.
Then life happens, and you realize when you are at your lowest, who is truly there. You realize how people try to manipulate you because they think they are convincing and they think you are stupid. But maybe years past that's how it was, with your naivety or maybe your eyes just haven't been opened yet. But today, you can not be manipulated.
I take full responsibility for my actions, but I also hold people responsible for theirs. I don't sugar coat. Why? I hate fake people. Take me or leave me... any more I really don't care. I'm older, and the 4 most important people in my life you know... although one you don't. Maybe you'll meet him when he's here next month, or maybe not.
Anyway, I've had a lot of time to think since I moved. And I realize, I need to get back to that woman who wore those rose colored glasses. But this time, concentrate on the most important. We only live once, and today may be the last day. Heck, who knows! but it's living happily ever after, painting our life beautiful, romanticizing our lives, appreciating those who are there and forgetting those who are not. And don't forget to come to terms with what you do or you don't do. So you have no regrets. I have done this, and I am ok with everything I've done or haven't done. And whoever judges me, must look in the mirror first...
I truly believe life takes away people so that we stop giving all we had intended on giving. I've learned that 4 times in the last 2 years. People who I had planned to share different things with, but they left before these things took place. So I truly believe that is saving me. True colors exposed. of us all...
What I came to Colorado for didn't happen. And that's another story, but maybe coming back here was for lessons I've learned since. Who knows... but all I do know is the important remain. Those who truly care, will never leave. And those who truly care are who you have to do your best for. Release those who leave, their loss. And move on, be better, and turn on that music and dance. Just never stop moving.... Forward
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