Today....filled with memories

I felt kinda silly writing what I did today on Facebook.  


This is what I wrote:‎


9 years ago today...i met probably the strongest love of my life, face to face....someone who i can say was the closest thing to my soulmate. Someone...so much like me, in thoughts, in actions, amongst other things. Someone who will live in my heart always....its funny, today i was walking, thinking of the beautiful things I experienced so long ago...and a story... a beautiful fairy tale appeared in my mind. This is not the first time... this person and my experiences with him have brought stories out of me and hopefully someday you can read them! Now I have to write it down!

I wrote it because its what I felt.  But, some may think I'm silly.  ok...I am!  


I sometimes see things written by girls that are love sick...guys that are broken hearted.   And, I wish I could help them.


In no way am I lovesick or broken hearted for this person I wrote about.   I just had to share a beautiful experience I had.


I said i thought of a story, a magical faire tale based on things I was remembering from back then.  Its funny...but so many stories have come from that short experience...yet years long.   My mind is always churning...always creating a story and because of the moments lived before, during and after this experience...they've stimulated the creative portion of my brain to write...

Sometimes special people walk into our lives.  Sometimes, you wonder why and just how this could have happened.  Especially when you're in two totally different sides of the earth. It's fate...what else.   Nothing more...nothing less.   You're meant to be where you are that moment...of course based on our decisions in life and also the direction of the wheel...which places us at the perfect spot...at the perfect moment.


Yeah, I met my special friend on the internet...and with him like with my husband, I was pretty lucky that my intuition about both of them was right on.


I did something crazy even for me...I got on a plane, never had been on one.  And went to follow a dream or a desire...whatever you want to call it.


I got there...first moments were horrible....but the other 7 days were some of the best days of my life.   I was exposed to beautiful sites, and moments filled with laughter and some with tears.  Hey it was a vacation...a time away from reality.  Yet a vacation that could also be a beautiful dream.   When i've told the story in detail to some of my closest friends and family, they are like...ahhhhh...how beautiful...how sad.   haha...now i laugh, because I wonder if my portrayal of my experience seems better because of my story telling abilities or was it what truly happened.   Yeah...it is what truly happened...and because of the incredibly beautiful moments...i have no choice but to tell it like it was.  Hey...another thing is...i don't lie lol


When I left that island...my friend said we were abandoning the island and  it would be lonely without us.   I have to laugh...because honestly, I left a big part of my heart on that island.     And he knows he did too.


When I say we are so alike...i mean it.  We are both the same sign...we over analyze, we think too much...we can read each other, we are Sagittarius...and if you know anything about our sign, you would know its us.  And only until recently i began to read about my sign, because i never wanted to believe in the stars before.

I talked to him today, as I so often do.  We laugh...we joke...and we remember...in fact he remembers more than me...in much more detail.   Which is fun, because, for me its like discovering a treasure that was lost.  


I wrote something else in facebook, but in spanish...that said... sometimes the things we can't have in life seem the most beautiful...because what we hold on to, are the beautiful moments and we forget the reality of those experiences.   It's like a dream or a fairy tale...but its best to leave what you can't have, in the past.   Although sometimes, it can be difficult if we continue to relive those moments over and over again...its difficult if we choose not to let them go...and even more difficult when you have that other person staring you in the face or speaking the beautiful words that entrance..  Another thing that makes it difficult for me...is the music.   The music brings it all back.   

I realize the good...i realize the bad.  I say, that until the day I find what I had then...if its possible...and i believe it is, I won't ever let go.   I hold on to everything...you'd be surprised at the things I have.  Its a treasure box filled with beautiful things, beautiful moments, both happy and sad...


Yeah...call me silly....i'm an open book that's not afraid to be read.   I know I'm not alone in what I feel today...and that to me is what matters most. 


When i talked to him, I reminded him what today was...he paused when I said it.  And then he sighed...and said he couldn't believe so many years had passed.  I can't believe it either.  I thought we would see each other at least once a year.    During those years I got lost somewhere...but I won't let another go by without going back so we can have that cup of coffee and my favorite sorbete de limon...and look into each other's eyes, just one more time.   But then I wonder...will that be enough.  Hmm...   


To be continued....

My new adventure....

Ok...

The last couple of weeks I got involved in something.   Something that I am determined will change my life.

I went to an event...that totally blew my mind last weekend.  It was an event honoring achievers.   Ok...when I think of achievers, I think of college educated.   Or successful business owners.  People who have worked hard to achieve their goals.

What amazed me here....was there were people who didn't have to be college educated.   A lot were college drop outs, only because of where this opportunity took them.  Most started in this business to pay for their college educations.   A lot told stories of their parents, and how they wanted to help their parents, after seeing them work 2 and 3 jobs to support their families.   There were a couple that spoke that day, that are now retiring their parents.   Huh...geez...my mom is retired, but if I could help her to live a better life...what better incentive do I have...other than my son?

A lot of these achievers were in their early 20's.  Of course there were older people as well.

What I was amazed by...is they were people, just like you and me.   People with drive...and determination.   People who didn't let "NO" stop them.  People who were determined to have a better future.

I was really impressed by a few, one guy started 7 months ago...19 years old...and i was told he came from the hood!  You know...close to the ghetto!   He's making now 5 figure income a month...ok, five figures, that's 10,000....hey i want $10K a month...don't you!

There was also this couple, i'd say they were in their late 30's.  A couple that have a medical supply company.  And of course, because of the economy saw this business opportunity and went for it.  Within a year's time...due to what this company has done for them, they are now in the process of selling their medical supply company.

There was a mother and son there...which touched me, because of my relationship with my son.  They are Haitian.   The mother told the story of her son coming home excited about a new opportunity that he had seen.  She said, "no way...go to your room"  He persisted...and she finally let him go with it.   He is now after, just a couple years, one of the leaders.   He is now about 23 years old...not sure!   But she got into it after she saw what he was doing.   And is now a high achiever as well.

There was a brother and sister.  He is one of the highest achievers, and she is just below him.  Both were in college, worried how they were going to pay their educations, because their parents couldn't.  He's now 26, she must be about 24, maybe.   They told their stories...broke, and this opportunity was presented to him first.  He went with it...today he's driving a Bentley after 7 years.   He told how he and his sister are giving their mother $30,000 as a christmas gift.   Blew my mind...

There were people who spoke very little english, if any at all, who were making their dreams a reality due to this system.

It was so nice seeing people dressed professionally.  You can't wear jeans to these functions.   So, I had to go out and buy Anthony dress pants and shoes, a tie and a belt.   What a few of these young adults said, is this business has expanded their lives.  It's taught them confidence and how to speak and carry themselves in a professional manner.   It's awesome!!

I'm laughing because the photo I chose for this blog, was intended to be a professional photo of me!  I'm a jeans and cute top type of person... trying to use more skirts because they're more attractive for me!  And ok I do dress or try to dress professionally for work, I don't own a business suit...but a skirt and top does me good!  So here I am in my "trying to look a little professional" photo....hey, its the only thing I had! lol

Ok...back to my story.....

Hey, I was impressed...and I am one that is not easily impressed.   Because I want to know who, why, when, and what...in order to do anything.   This day... i don't know what it was, but I believed in it.

First of all...I am the hardest person to sell something to.  I don't believe in things.  A few weeks ago, a lady from work asked me to meet with her to discuss something.  I knew what was coming... But because she wouldn't stop asking, I decided to go to lunch with her and hear what she had to offer, but i'm going to the luncheon thinking "please, please, please don't ask me to join your group and sell something"  She was selling Melaluca, my mom used to sell it.  So, I put my blinders on....why you ask?   Because I don't like to sell.    Hey I sold Tupperware, Avon, Amway...etc etc.

Hey, I can't even sell myself something if I don't believe in it.   For instance, I may see something I like and walk toward the register and on the way i'm thinking...do I need it?  will I use it?  Do i really like it?....most of the time, I don't get as far as the register!

Ok, ok...I sell real estate.  Some times I like it, sometimes I don't.   But, I will NOT sell products where you tell me I have to buy your detergent...or your shampoo or your vitamins...or creams...or pans...or knives...or THINGS I WILL NOT USE!    Hey,,,, even though you're telling me that your product is good for the environment...it still doesnt smell like Downey, which I've been using for over 20 years...and i don't think anyone, until they come out with the exact same smell...will get me to change.  That's me...hard...i like what I like and you can't change my mind...I won't use it even if its free...ahhh, can't lie, maybe if its free,  i could use it for old stuff.

So...over the last week.  I was sold...and only because these things I now provide are things you and I use each and every minute of our waking lives.    Simple huh....and what's more simple...is it sells itself.   With names we use each and every day.  I don't have to change your mindset...because these are products and companies that we already use.

I think you've all gotten to know me a little more...I'm not a liar...as you can see in all my blogs..I'm an open book, hey you all know my life story now...i'm not afraid to tell it.   So....

Hey...I'm on a mission...and I'm going to make it work for me.  Want to come along for the ride....hop on!

My new song:  MAKE IT HAPPEN....MARIAH CAREY!   and the words of inspiration for me are:    IF YOU BELIEVE IN YOURSELF ENOUGH...AND KNOW WHAT YOU WANT, YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN...AND IF YOU GET DOWN ON YOUR KNEES AT NIGHT AND PRAY TO THE LORD...HE'S GOING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN!   And this will be the song they play...as i walk up to the stage!

Hey...times a wastin...and I'm tired of worrying about the future...due to limited funds!  I'm tired of not being able to have freedom due to limited funds....i'm tired of wanting to accomplish a simple dream...so simple as hopping on a plane...due to limited funds!  hey, i'm tired of turning the air conditioning off in Miami...so I can save a few bucks..even though we're perspiring and growing mold in our lungs...due to limited funds  (just kidding, but close on the last one) lol

So here i go...wish me luck!  Hey, but I'm already lucky...didn't I tell you :)


ok...i'm not preaching you should drop out of college.  STAY IN SCHOOL!    :)

Happy...

Today as I was driving around...doing work related things. I was listening to my playlist called Feeling Happy and the song by TI & Chris Brown - Get Back Up was playing. So I'm driving...singing, swaying to the music. I see a man looking at me as I'm singing and tapping the steering wheel and so into my song, while I was parked at a stop light.

Initially, I got a little embarrassed...then I thought what the heck, and kept on singing and tapping, because the song was so good I just couldn't waste it. I smiled at him, and he gave me a grumpy look, so i kept dancing, enjoying my music...as I drove away, I saw him smile and shake his head. He probably thought I was crazy! Hey but he smiled.

I started thinking. And realized just how happy I am. Hey....I really can't tell you why. But I have this feeling in me.

So I continued with my day. Feeling happy! I stopped at Best Buy, and smiled at everyone. I got lots of smiles back. That made me happy - ER !!

Then I went into Target....i'm walking through the isles looking for a squirt bottle...looking lost i'm sure. I saw a man watching me walk down the isle...and as I approached him I smiled...his smile was slight. So I smiled bigger, and he smiled bigger! Hey I made him smile!

Then I walk into whole foods...and saw a girl with pretty eyes...so I told her so! She smiled and said thank you. That made me happy!

I saw the most delicious looking apples...they looked like New Mexico apples...there was a lady there trying to figure how she could only take a few without taking the entire bag, they were set in brown bags, and i also thought I had to take an entire bag. I explained to her what bag to use. She thanked me and smiled.

Its so easy to spread your happiness...I felt like I spread mine today! A small compliment...a simple smile, just might change someone's day.

One day, Anthony and I were at Taco Bell. There was a little boy there, 8 or 9 years old. Sitting at a table alone, coloring in his coloring book. I wondered first of all why he was alone. Then I said Hi!. He looked at me apprehensively and put his head down and continued coloring. Then I said...so he could hear me..."wow, you're an artist" He continued coloring with his head down, but I saw the smile that appeared on his face. When Anthony came back to the table, I said "Anthony, did you see that boy...he's an artist!" Anthony looked at me like "mom, you're nuts". But my son knows me well...and he knows I love to make a difference in people's lives. Not that I'm always doing it, but I do like to compliment people and show them they are appreciated.

I think that a simple gesture, a nice compliment, a helpful hand, and a smile can change someone's day, if not their life.

Today I'm happy...because my heart is happy. I can't tell you I have a reason, other than, I'm alive...and I'm ok! I can only imagine the happiness I will feel when the two things in my life that I desire come to be. I'll probably explode from happiness!!

Its easy to be happy....you have to find it inside, and then let it spill over so you share it with outs.