I felt kinda silly writing what I did today on Facebook.
This is what I wrote:
9 years ago today...i met probably the strongest love of my life, face to face....someone who i can say was the closest thing to my soulmate. Someone...so much like me, in thoughts, in actions, amongst other things. Someone who will live in my heart always....its funny, today i was walking, thinking of the beautiful things I experienced so long ago...and a story... a beautiful fairy tale appeared in my mind. This is not the first time... this person and my experiences with him have brought stories out of me and hopefully someday you can read them! Now I have to write it down!
I wrote it because its what I felt. But, some may think I'm silly. ok...I am!
I sometimes see things written by girls that are love sick...guys that are broken hearted. And, I wish I could help them.
In no way am I lovesick or broken hearted for this person I wrote about. I just had to share a beautiful experience I had.
I said i thought of a story, a magical faire tale based on things I was remembering from back then. Its funny...but so many stories have come from that short experience...yet years long. My mind is always churning...always creating a story and because of the moments lived before, during and after this experience...they've stimulated the creative portion of my brain to write...
Sometimes special people walk into our lives. Sometimes, you wonder why and just how this could have happened. Especially when you're in two totally different sides of the earth. It's fate...what else. Nothing more...nothing less. You're meant to be where you are that moment...of course based on our decisions in life and also the direction of the wheel...which places us at the perfect spot...at the perfect moment.
Yeah, I met my special friend on the internet...and with him like with my husband, I was pretty lucky that my intuition about both of them was right on.
I did something crazy even for me...I got on a plane, never had been on one. And went to follow a dream or a desire...whatever you want to call it.
I got there...first moments were horrible....but the other 7 days were some of the best days of my life. I was exposed to beautiful sites, and moments filled with laughter and some with tears. Hey it was a vacation...a time away from reality. Yet a vacation that could also be a beautiful dream. When i've told the story in detail to some of my closest friends and family, they are like...ahhhhh...how beautiful...how sad. haha...now i laugh, because I wonder if my portrayal of my experience seems better because of my story telling abilities or was it what truly happened. Yeah...it is what truly happened...and because of the incredibly beautiful moments...i have no choice but to tell it like it was. Hey...another thing is...i don't lie lol
When I left that island...my friend said we were abandoning the island and it would be lonely without us. I have to laugh...because honestly, I left a big part of my heart on that island. And he knows he did too.
When I say we are so alike...i mean it. We are both the same sign...we over analyze, we think too much...we can read each other, we are Sagittarius...and if you know anything about our sign, you would know its us. And only until recently i began to read about my sign, because i never wanted to believe in the stars before.
I talked to him today, as I so often do. We laugh...we joke...and we remember...in fact he remembers more than me...in much more detail. Which is fun, because, for me its like discovering a treasure that was lost.
I wrote something else in facebook, but in spanish...that said... sometimes the things we can't have in life seem the most beautiful...because what we hold on to, are the beautiful moments and we forget the reality of those experiences. It's like a dream or a fairy tale...but its best to leave what you can't have, in the past. Although sometimes, it can be difficult if we continue to relive those moments over and over again...its difficult if we choose not to let them go...and even more difficult when you have that other person staring you in the face or speaking the beautiful words that entrance.. Another thing that makes it difficult for me...is the music. The music brings it all back.
I realize the good...i realize the bad. I say, that until the day I find what I had then...if its possible...and i believe it is, I won't ever let go. I hold on to everything...you'd be surprised at the things I have. Its a treasure box filled with beautiful things, beautiful moments, both happy and sad...
Yeah...call me silly....i'm an open book that's not afraid to be read. I know I'm not alone in what I feel today...and that to me is what matters most.
When i talked to him, I reminded him what today was...he paused when I said it. And then he sighed...and said he couldn't believe so many years had passed. I can't believe it either. I thought we would see each other at least once a year. During those years I got lost somewhere...but I won't let another go by without going back so we can have that cup of coffee and my favorite sorbete de limon...and look into each other's eyes, just one more time. But then I wonder...will that be enough. Hmm...
To be continued....
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